Thursday, January 15, 2009 / 6:06 AM
weather: sunny, windy
15th January 2009
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Right now, im just feeling uber stressed up. Its only the 4th day of school, and so many many things have had happened over the start of school till now. Lessons, band, and everything, suddenly, everything just seems so overwhelming. And all of a sudden, I feel like, im a Dumb person in a school of elites. Today during bio lecture, Mr Ng went at a speed of which i could not even catch a thing. Respiration started today for bio lectures. and guess what, i caught nothing, and i guess i'll have to go read the things at tortoise pace. Then again, the same thing happened for econs. All I felt for lessons is that, The style of the j2 lecturing system works on auditory learning skills much more than visual or kinesthethic, which is what i learn best by. Change of learning methods? Yeah, i guess i'll have to learn how to learn auditorily too. But then again, I guess, i need to be a much hardworking boy this year. Also, Like i feel so disorganized and everything all of a sudden. like Im like, omg, im in a deep abyss, and endless deep abyss, and by the time i would've resurfaced, it would've been by the time i am about to die. I need to accelerate my speed of flying out of the abyss. Omg, you look at all the lecture notes and the way j2 is running, at j1 pae, i thought that things were stressful, but still manageable, at j1 it was like @#$%^&*()#$%^&*(, and right now it feels 100000x worse than @#$%^&*()@#$%^&*(. Okay, i need to get myself organized, and had better start work, organizing and stuff. It's been really long, since my head pounded so hard. And well, things are not looking at the bright side for the case of band now. All i can say is that, should we not work hard, the results are gonna be disastrous. Yes, i should work hard on my part as well. Time management, the way to play the game. Gosh 4th day of school, things please brighten up soon);. GAH.
anyhow, am gonna repost the part on CIP soon. yup. this weekend should i have the time. haiz. right, going off to read on aerobic respiration.
-jErM I'm feeling myself to be a hateable person currently, an irritating and stupid one in fact. gosh.