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Sunday, June 27, 2010 / 8:07 AM

Weather: cloudy
27th june 2010
music: -

mymy, many things have happened such that ah, haha, I feel so lazy to update already, but then, tomorrow, a new chapter of life begins, at AFTC, new challenges, new environment(which's good, away from OCS. omg, shiok.), and yes, just new everything, I heard that we'll get our own laptops there so maybe i shall blog from there. its alr 2318hrs and i should be in bed to get a good start to tomorrow morning, but yes. i just somehow feel so worried, I dont know why, just worried in a way. I'm now just thinking, like thinking hard on whether i will be able to pull through the whole 6.5 months anot. I'm already 1/4 way through my NS life(OMG, LIKE FINALLY.), haha, but it's still a heck lot of a way to go. Met up with the section 3 people this weekend, and yes, it feels soooo great to just hang out with 'em once again, and haising flutes, and omg, so many other people. haha. sighs. It just feels great when you're able to be yourself. My siao, noisy talkative self with 'em, it's like, being able to be yourself, being able to say out your thoughts, being able to feel comfortable around them man.

So, in air wing, im quiet, im quiet im quiet. Woa, how many times have i heard that line already man. But i mean that, 1) there's no topic that I can talk to you guys about, 2) all i can do is smile smile smile/laugh laugh laugh. Somehow, the only place that i managed to be myself, is on level 4 at OCS, with weiliang, with loga, with jun hong, with jun hua, with jasper, with ernest man. omg, it just feels so great to be able to be yourself. and of course, with the girls at the opposite block, haha, cadet toh, and kaili. omg, like being some siao gina. That's the real me man. So, right now, I really dont know how to be able to feel comfortable around man. New environment, with people that im okay too, but not say close. but I shall see how things turn out tomorrow. Uncertainty, something that no one likes.

Everyone's saying that AFTC will be great, 8-5, they wont bother you after 5 bla bla bla. But shall just wait and see. Anyhow, block leave's great, but it has passed really fast. Feels great to be able to play flute again, and being under the great conducting of mr quek. Omg, just great. Somehow, I really cant wait for NS to be over man. BAND BAND, FLUTE. OMG. yes. this life of music. sighs.):. but nvm, For now, i shall try my best. Anyhow also, hope that my injuries can heal faster man. please, omg i really hope that my stamina for running hasnt dropped too bad. mm. but for now yes, i shall sleep soon man.

sighs, praying that everything'll be okay. to another quarter of NS life. here goes..

-jErM