Weather: Sunny 27th November 2010 music: 100 years- Five For Fighting.
It's been really really really long since i've touched this place anyway. It's not that I've stopped blogging anyway, just that it has turned into a form of a journal in camp, which writes about alot of stuffs which sadly i can't post ah. so yup. And i think that might actually start a whole new blog all over again. This time, nicer, better and more proper. It's just amazing on how upon when you read back on your older posts, how much you've grown actually. In the way that you speak, the way that you think, the things that bother you, how relations has all changed up as well. People whom you might actually quarrel with in the past, now, are all your friends, etc. Journey in AFTC, 1 last month to go, and i'm already missing it. Somehow, it's just funny, and amazing, how we just all start adapting to places, but 1 thing that i must still say is that, in command school, i've never really settled down anyhow in the first place.
A short post, maybe it's time to change the way i blog.
Might be reverting this skin, back to one, which i feel that suits this the most. and it is indeed time, to move on to a newer blog, thinking of potentialbot, but let's see what i can do.For now, A2, Course badge, the lt's presents, etc. let's finish this thing up, jerms.
-jErM
Sunday, June 27, 2010 / 8:07 AM
Weather: cloudy 27th june 2010 music: -
mymy, many things have happened such that ah, haha, I feel so lazy to update already, but then, tomorrow, a new chapter of life begins, at AFTC, new challenges, new environment(which's good, away from OCS. omg, shiok.), and yes, just new everything, I heard that we'll get our own laptops there so maybe i shall blog from there. its alr 2318hrs and i should be in bed to get a good start to tomorrow morning, but yes. i just somehow feel so worried, I dont know why, just worried in a way. I'm now just thinking, like thinking hard on whether i will be able to pull through the whole 6.5 months anot. I'm already 1/4 way through my NS life(OMG, LIKE FINALLY.), haha, but it's still a heck lot of a way to go. Met up with the section 3 people this weekend, and yes, it feels soooo great to just hang out with 'em once again, and haising flutes, and omg, so many other people. haha. sighs. It just feels great when you're able to be yourself. My siao, noisy talkative self with 'em, it's like, being able to be yourself, being able to say out your thoughts, being able to feel comfortable around them man.
So, in air wing, im quiet, im quiet im quiet. Woa, how many times have i heard that line already man. But i mean that, 1) there's no topic that I can talk to you guys about, 2) all i can do is smile smile smile/laugh laugh laugh. Somehow, the only place that i managed to be myself, is on level 4 at OCS, with weiliang, with loga, with jun hong, with jun hua, with jasper, with ernest man. omg, it just feels so great to be able to be yourself. and of course, with the girls at the opposite block, haha, cadet toh, and kaili. omg, like being some siao gina. That's the real me man. So, right now, I really dont know how to be able to feel comfortable around man. New environment, with people that im okay too, but not say close. but I shall see how things turn out tomorrow. Uncertainty, something that no one likes.
Everyone's saying that AFTC will be great, 8-5, they wont bother you after 5 bla bla bla. But shall just wait and see. Anyhow, block leave's great, but it has passed really fast. Feels great to be able to play flute again, and being under the great conducting of mr quek. Omg, just great. Somehow, I really cant wait for NS to be over man. BAND BAND, FLUTE. OMG. yes. this life of music. sighs.):. but nvm, For now, i shall try my best. Anyhow also, hope that my injuries can heal faster man. please, omg i really hope that my stamina for running hasnt dropped too bad. mm. but for now yes, i shall sleep soon man.
sighs, praying that everything'll be okay. to another quarter of NS life. here goes..
-jErM
Saturday, June 5, 2010 / 8:21 PM
weather; stormy 6th June 2010 music: SNSD run devil run album
haha, i know i kindda havent updated this place in a horrendously long time such that no one will be reading this anymore, or perhaps if you'll pop by, haha, you might actually get to see this post. But, yes, things have been really busy of late here in OCS. Still, yes, the taiwan trip is still yet to be updated, every single thing that has happened on weekends since OCS have still yet to be updated. Havent met alot of people in a really really long time le; section 3, 22/08 and everybody else. It's like, everyone now is all busy up with their lives, including me. So yes. Still, we're all being chased through the motion of life right now. And i find that as we grow up, our worlds start to become more complex. Life is no longer about, just go school, finish up homework in 30 mins, and get it all correct and nicely done, and spend the rest of the day on tv, computer or perhaps just a lovely walk at the park. Life now as you grow up is about meeting people who are complicated, meeting even more adversities and difficulties, about seeing people fighting only for themselves, and yes, you'll just have to keep finding yourself swallowing up everything if you wanna even bother surviving in this world.
The life in OCS is really not easy. Till now, I really miss the simple life of BMT. The life where when i can book in, looking forth to spending weeks and weeks with dear section 3, weeks where i can just concentrate on nothing but physical stuff. The life in OCS is like, BMT level 100, it's like things have changed so much. It's no longer simple. Everyone here is damn freaking smart. They can think, think very complicated and well in fact. Everyone here is smart. and all that they care about is how to using their smarts to care for themselves. By luck, perhaps like really by my gods, Life in NS has indeed been smooth so far. Losing 22kg, surviving BMT, even thinking about passing IPPT, even getting into OCS, and getting into air wing, or for those who dont understand, to get to be an officer in the airforce just for 2 years when most will have to sign on. Everyone here is so complex, all they care about, is for themselves. About chao kenging about, woa, i dont know what to say. The sirs here say that if by Tuesday, the discipline of the wing doesnt buck up, we'll all get confined the following week. Regardless of what others are feeling, I already am feeling like, yes, we all are gonna get confined. Everyone's, well most people are just selfish i guess. It's okay. I'm already used to it. I really cant wait for the last 2 weeks of service term to fly pass. and yes, next week, things are gonna get really physical. I really hope that i can survive the whole mess man. Be it for parents and sgt yj to put on the rank for me in commissioning parade, or be it for personal achievement, I just really want to clear service term first at least. Silver for ippt. omg, please let it happen. and yes, pro term at AFTC.
Everyone's promising me that life will be better at AFTC. that, yes, the discipline will be more lax(which might not be such a good thing), and yes, everyone there will talk to you with more respect, with more understanding, and yes, the C3 people here are good. Btw, if you guys dont know, the job that i've been streamlined into doing, is C3-control, coordination and communications, ie. an officer that works at a control tower, to orchestrate air traffic. Yes, the C3 people here at least are okay. and yes, the impression of the Air force and the impression of officers have changed drastically since I've entered this screwed up place man. really. I dont know how to feel about things anymore, i dont know what the hell im doing. Just that, in lectures, I am really getting sick of slides that contain full of words, monotonous lecturers and they talk to you expecting you to understand everything already. Maybe cos I'm a simple person. i dont know. really, till now i really dont know. I dont know if i've made the right choice to enter OCS. but still, yes, i shall follow through the motion of life for now. See where it takes me. I'm pretty sure that i can tahan this, although i'll groan and everything along the way. But yes for now. I'm just hoping that all this can end fast man.
well, the weeks to come wont be easy. and yes, might have even less time to blog le. You guys take care okay. Talk to you guys soon.
-jErM
Friday, April 9, 2010 / 6:18 PM
Weather: cloudy/grey skies 10th April 2010 music: my whole mp3 playlist!, esp snsd songs man, deprived of it for a week alr event: a day after POP. =/.
Hey hey, as promised, here's a pictury wordy post, am supposed to upload pictures from POP, but the thing is that the camera card reader isnt working ><, dang!, haha, but its okay, ill upload it at the next post man. anyhow, recorded myself playing flute here! hope the video works, it's xin yuan bian li tie from ming zhong, cos was testing out the camera, haha, so here, enjoy okay!
^and here's an updated picture of myself holding my flute in my room man. hahah. sighs, changes and changes.
Event 1: reflections upon BMT/ part 1.
^Anyhow, here's a picture of me during enlistment day which ive already updated it onto facebook! hahaha. BMT's amazing i guess. It just sucks to have to go through the activites again and again, tolerate all the nonsense that other sections might give, the nonsense that the sergeants(well o platoons) and the W.(of which ill never ever acknowledge him as my PC anyway), yeah, but still, im gonna miss living with my section a lot. Right now, after POP, i just feel kindda empty, like how sergeant yj's feeling. Like, usually weekends we rush to do whatever we need to complete, before booking in on monday again to meet up with sect 3. But now, no, life's gonna change. It feels really sad, like parting with 2208, and now with this great group of guys. Everyone's gonna be streamlined to all over the place again, and yes, i guess, this is how life is. But one good thing is that, at least, long lasting deep friendships are being made, and yes, thank you so much, sergeant yee jek, Lieutanant Aaron Tan, SECTION 3, platoon 1 for making my life so enjoyable in BMT. I mean, really, without you guys, I dont know how ill survive through BMT, weight loss of 22kg would not have been possible, getting a silver for IPPT wouldnt have been possible. I mean, yeah effort on my part, but it is you guys there to cheer me on and motivate me that actually makes me to want to put in more effort. And of course, my gods, yeah, really, every week, thank you so much for bao you-ing me throughout this whole thing man, like yeah, like a garter appeared out of nowhere for fire movement drill when i lost mine, and H and S were screaming like hell alr. hahaha. thanks so much man. really. okay, shall elab more on the next post, but thats about it for now.
Event 2: Touring NTU with hon!
haha. yay hon! omg, i know that you'll definitely read up till this part!(:. hahahah. thank you so much for posting up the pictures on fb! hahaha. anyhow, the pictures are really pretty! So yes, the day started out with me and hon going down to NTU to take a look, cos i missed the open house for NTU/NUS due to the confinement from SIT test. hahaha. We walked around NIE first, and woa, the school's really big, its like a mini TJ implanted in the whole campus. haha. But, i really like the pond decos outside NIE, where me and jud took some pics using her phone. haha. the scenery's really nice dont you think
We walked all the way down to the engineering school thereafter, (which's reallly big!), haha, and then to the school of biological sciences. haha. Though I'm really sad that it's one small building in a super super super super big campus. hahaa. Headed down to the WKWSI thereafter, and yes, haha, the rooftop and study environment seems really nice!. haha.
ta-da. hahaha. but yeah. hahaha. still, I think that im going more for NUS than for NTU. Yeah, cos i wanna study on marine biology, which only seems to be offered at NUS as an honours year project. hahaha. but still, no matter what, i guess, opening up choices for yourself is a good thing. hahaha. But still, i really enjoyed the day out touring NTU with hon man! hahahah. man. havent met up with you guys for a really long time alr! hahha. Ill meet you guys after the taiwan trip next week okay! haha. =D.
Event 3: Mn's bday chalet!
^after so so many years, here's a shot of hsc flute section! hahaha. though still many people not there, but really had a lot of fun that day. It's been so long since everyone met up! hahaha. but its damn funny, cos for 10 minutes, they cant get use to how i look. hahahaha. damn funny man. played murderer, and all sorts of games, talked around, chatted a bit here and there. haha. Really cant wait for the next meet up. Yeah man, flutes!(;
event 4: Proper shots of life so far
Here's a summary of life so far, since p6, enjoy man.
Sighs, so fast orh, life, haha, just like that 18 years plus have flew by alr, soon, just so soon, I think ORD will be here. but still ah, aiya, 1 year 6 months, long time to go ah. ahhaha. but still yes, i'm really appreciative of all the great things in life that has happened so far man. yeah. ahhaha. more to come for this section okay~
event 5: Me and mum!
^ this was when i was sec 3 at the airport
^ this was on enlistment day, at tekong's canteen!
^ and this is now. hahaha. more to come too on this section, cos im lazy to go dig up photos. haha. but dont you think that mum's so cute! hahaha. =D. but still, yes man, thanks mum so far for taking care of me so well in this life man. really, without all the love and support that you've given to nurture/take care of me, I would probably be some pai kia out on the streets man. hahaha.I'm really sorry if ive been a bad boy at many times, and perhaps even rude, but still, thanks so much for never ever stopping to give me your unconditional love and support. haha, which i guess, i'll never repay even in a lifetime. haha. but still, yes, the aim of this, to show how much both of us changed since the day i was born man. haha.(:.
event 6: Ice skating outing with rs, sh and la
haha, not really ice skating, cos we didnt go in the end, haha, but still, we went to watch a movie.. but we did take some pictures. haha. credits to la for the one that me and ah rong are in. haha.(;.
Event 7: section outing with section 3.(:
Although not everybody's there, but still, haha, alot of people turned up for it!(:. haha. still, it was really fun, really, the best ever time in life that i had spending time with people man. haha. the source where i get strength, motivation and fun from. haha. yay section 3. haha, went to eat yuki yaki that day, and shopped around, before going down to people's park center to look out for the Taiwan trip man. haha.(:
^Francis, weili and jia ren!(:
^ me, wenyao and jason(:
^ me, weili and lau man! yay lau. haha.
^and we went crazy. haha.(:
^ Me and Tung's zi pai shot. hahah. yay, cool.
^ haha!
^ nice orh!. hahaha.
^ and dear jason! hahahaha.
woa. haha. okay, i still feel fatigued from the route march(24km) yesterday. SIAO AH. hahahha. but still, it's still sad ah. i mean, like 5 months eh! and everyone has to part);. but still, yes, i really do hope that everyone keeps in contact! yes, we most probably will. still, yes taiwan next week, sentosa outing with 2208, before i move on to my next unit. hahaha. yes. okay everyone, going off to rest. take care okay! cya guys soon.
-jErM
"Today is the day we _ _ _, today is the day we _ _ _, today is the day we _ _ _ and we like to _ _ _ _ _." HAHA. yay. platoon one platoon one platoon one, we are the champions, we are the winners, we will always be the best. long live platoon one, and longer live, platoon one section 3!
Heyhey, haha, i kindda know that i promised to update this weekend, but blogger isnt allowing me to post up the pictures or anything. meanwhile, its a few more minutes to book in and there isnt much time. but this is the last week in tekong, with drills competition and the 24km graduation march. Its scary but still, yes, we'll all survive it somehow. So i'll just update on the next book out, when i pop, and am no longer a recruit. hahah. meanwhile, im heading to taiwan for a 5d4n trip with section mates(army). hahaha, will be looking forth and yes! shall update you guys about how everything's like soon okay! meanwhile, take care everyone, and yes, promise, there'll be a pictury wordy post again!
-jErM
Sunday, March 28, 2010 / 1:38 AM
weather: cloudy, grey 28th march 2010 music: run devil run, echo- SNSD event: ah xiang jie's bday
haha, i know i havent updated this place in a really long time. omg. yes, haha, lots of things have happened since the last update, which means that theres gonna be a really long post next week. Its another one plus hour to book in, but i really hope that there're no more activities back in camp for today, and next week shall be a 4 day week. Anyhow, yeowch man, i banged my knee bone on the monkey bar today whilst playing it at grandma's house today. Dang, ive got no idea at all how to continue with lunges and horizontals in CPT1. nvm ah, really hope it heals sooon. Anyhow, yup, lots of things have happened. Views on issues changed, happy/sad/stressful events have happened, so yeah shall update soon. Anyhow, its 2 more weeks to Passing Out Parade. I mean, since the very first day, everyone has been looking forth to this day. But surprisingly, Im starting to feel slightly sad. Cos, this means that youre gonna be separated from the people which you have lived for the past 5 months day in out. I mean, yeah there'll be meet ups and stuff, but i guess, yeah, gonna miss them a hell lot. Anyhow, but as much as that, im glad that at least, i do not need to tolerate W's arrongance or H's mad screams, or best still K's totalitarian way of treating people. yeah. hahaha. So yup, okay man, shall be logging off, take care to those out there okay. Ill cya guys next week.
-jErM NS's cycle is like this: before the activity, youre like, shit, its coming, during the activity, you're like, AHHH, FASTER END, FASTER END THIS HELL, DANG IT, FASTER!, and after the activity, youre like, OMG. I SURVIVED IT. HOHOHO. TEEHEE. WAHAHA. and the cycle just repeats and repeats and repeats until POP or maybe even ORD i guess. yeah. haha.
Saturday, March 6, 2010 / 12:31 AM
weather: cloudy
6th March 2010
music: sute ke dani- final fantasy X OST
Congratulations to 2208 for having done so well in the A level exams man seriously, and yes i mean every single one of us. (ESP THE PG) HAHA. AND YES, NBS, WE'VE DONE OURSELVES SUPER PROUD, ESP YOU, AND YOU. hahaha. you both ah, seriously. haha IMBA. WOO.
But of course out of all the highness, ive to thank my gods, seriously, without them i wouldnt know what to do, but i thought that i was gonna score really really horrendously badly, like really really, my dear wonderful parents, whove always been so so so supportive and sure of me in my entire life, no matter its an up or down, they will always be there, and as long as ive tried my best they know, and thanks for being proud of me, cos there's no better parents that i can ever ask for. My friends, 22/08, flute section(TJ), esp my study gangs, haha, thank you so much, teh teh, shawn, sihui, lavina, annette, thank you so so much for everything, seriously without you guys ah, alot of things would have been impossible, and of course, my teachers, SO MANY OF THEM, omg, hahaha, it would be really long to list them out but, mr daniel ng, mrs lena lim, mr gan, mr kao, ye lao shi, dong laoshi, mr ho, mr goh(aiya, just thank him lah). but really, thank you so so much everyone so far, I mean, yes, though my results its not Straight As like many people, but still its super super decent enough to land me into a local university with the course that i want i think. but i really hope that i can enter a good course, as in a course that i would enjoy for 4 years. yes.
Anyhow, now, i can finally finally understand why big boys cry for their mum, or why boys even cry for their parents in the first place, really your parents are the ones who will treat and love you the best in your life. After field camp, ive seriously learnt to appreciate so many things in life. What exactly happened was, the scoldings received were plenty, vulgar, fierce, pierces your heart till it bleeds kindda fierce, during the weekend back, even just simple nagging and words and acts of concern from your mum can just make you feel so touched, really, and just suddenly, before i left back for camp, tears just came to my eyes, and i just started crying. Drama much but yes. mum, dad, really really, i love you guys a heaven lot, to the max max core. Thank you guys so so much for providing everything and even extra more that a parent can even give to their child. really.but really ah, after field camp, i reallly really appreciate so many things more, like just sitting on concrete, being able to wear t shirt and shorts. omg. yes. so many things. really, i guess army experience so far is tough, really, but it will help people to grow strong mentally physically and be so much more appreciative of everything that you have.
anyhow, gonna be stuck in tekong for another 2 weeks, with reallly tough activities upcoming, am really dreading the attires though cos its heavy. But somehow, i know that ill survive it all over again like how ive been surviving. btw, my ippt scores did show some improvement espeically for pull ups, i really really hope that i can pass/ do well for ippt by the end of BMT. yes i must, for dad, mum and everyone else.
Anyhow, once again, congrats 2208, really really happy for everyone and myself, and yes, we're one class, the class that rocks. DONT LOSE CONTACT OKAY. hahaha.(:. all rights, going cycling now i guess with the hsc flutes, few of them actually okay, cya guys soon.
^^ add on, omg, in an hours time, ill be booking in back to camp for the next 2 weeks, omg, no civilization, just screams from sergeants, live ranges, SIT test, leopard crawls from point A to B. omg. haha. but nvm, its okay. ill live through it somehow again. haha. anyhow, thank you so much lyn, lh, mn and amanda for the great cycling trip yesterday evening-night, haha, it was really a great de stresser session where i laughed my guts out like mad. omg, haha, cycled from home all the way to changi village, which was something i need to train my lower body strength. really hope the next 2 weeks will turn out fine. okay i dont have much time left on my hands, take care everyone! Somehow, just somehow, ill live through everything! hahaha.(:. jiayou jiayou everybody!
-jErM
Introduction
"Whenever you feel like giving up, remember why you held on so long in the first place."
flute. lifesaving. academics
Make Damn Sure by Taking Back Sunday.
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jermaincho koi hong
jErM--
Male
11-10-1991 libra-ian
seventeen going on eighteen! mbs, hsc
Temasek
Junior
College
-To get into the NATIONAL UNIVERISTY OF SINGAPORE(FOS, LIFE SCIENCE!)
-DO WELL FOR STUDIES(PRELIMS AND As!)
-GOLD/SILVER FOR NAPFA -OG for coming orientation to be bonded -maintaining my 4h2s
-that uni grad photo with family
-PSP(after As!) -My very own flute!(powell/miyazawa!) -To get into a pro wind orch
-DIVING WITH HANTU BLOGGERS
-learn to express myself BETTER
-making better first impressions? -to lead my juniors well -play flute 1/2 in JC well!
-pimple-free
-Be more satisfied wif my life
-cope with my life