Wednesday, March 4, 2009 / 8:17 PM
Weather: sunny 5th March 2009 music: - woa. havent posted for a long long time. haha. there's a break now, and the last lesson of the day is econs followed by that, sectionals. Right ear ached like hell yesterday, like ever since in chem lecture, there is like, whenever the hamster spoke, its like a DOOB sound going in my ear, and that went on all the way till the NTU talk. Thereafter, went to see a doctor after some persuasion, and lucky enough for me, ear drops and pills did help me to get through today. But then, after PE today, theres like some excruciating pain happening somewhere above my left thigh, and like every step I take hurts, god if this cant cure before the 11 legged race, i guess i'll have to get myself a replacement. =/. anyhow, recently in class, just wanna say that the general mood of the class is burnt. Sleeping in lectures, distracted in tutorials, not paying attention in classes, no mood to even do anything right now. Its like, and im part of that. Its not that im burnt, rather its sianned. Ever since the end of orientation, ive been trying really hard to get back into the mood and momentum from wherever ive left off. But then, its like, i cant seem to get back into that mood, which sucks. Currently, bands like. mmm. heavy. real heavy. 4/7 days a week, and its getting harder to cope with the mounting amount of tutorials and lectures. and its like, haiz. nvm, its k, im still trying my best to cope I guess. But then, academic wise, its getting really hard. Macro econs is like, mmm. seems foreign right now. and like, the application of bio syllabus is like, ):. At first, it seemed okay, listenable. But i totally lost myself after gel electrophoresis. and math? woa, ive lost the lecturer in the binomial distribution lecture. Chem energetics is like, giving me a headache as well. and GP till now's like ):. Everyday, just trying to be okay, trying to smile. and im succeeding in that. But its like a big pile of mess inside. And its not like as though my fluting rocks or anything. goodness. I wanna like concentrate one by one, one step at a time. But everytime when i get the time to do all this, it just ends up as sleeping time, or well, something like that. Goodness me. Everyday in school, its like tired, tired, and, mmm, tired? I cant really go on like this. I'll die. I need the time to like, go through the things that i dont understand, but apparently, lessons are marching ON and ON and ON and ON. its like the stress will never go away--ay--ay-ay-ay-ay-ay. Just really, i wish time could pause, just for a moment. allow me to refresh, and lemme continue to try to head on from there. and im so sick of the grades im getting. Its always just a mere pass, or well, close to there. I miss As, and Bs. I miss them a hell lot. I dont care, this MCT, i WILLLLLL SMELL MY FIRST A HERE IN TJ. YES I WILL. omg, tired, but yes, ive got to try. well, 8 more mins to lessons, getting back there. shit, feeling sleepy, hope i dont fall asleep or anything. :/.On a brighter and sadder note, A level results is tomorrow. and im going to make a strong bet that ANDY WILL TOP TJ! hahaha. anyone wanna take up this bet? haha. and well, sadder, cos, im worried for my chinese morrow. hope everything will turn out fine man.-jErMIve not really bothered about anything emotionally recently. Already, ive just realized that im not glancing over to your direction anymore in lectures.
Tell me that all this is a result of tiredness.
Please tell me it is. sighs. like really. Yeah i think it is, shouldnt think so much.
