Sunday, May 17, 2009 / 6:45 AM
weather: sunny
17th May 2009
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Ive never, in my whole entire life, felt this tired before. Inside out, i feel fried. and the flu now aint making things better at all. Im starting to lag out on almost all tutorials. shit, that reminds me of the diversity tutorial that has yet to be done by tuesday. and im halfway reading through the lecture notes for chem eqm and the tutorial will be like going through tmr. and econs right now, i dont know what the heck is going on, and well, the GP essays and practices that im supposed to do for the last 3 weeks? hur. not done at all. well, band life is ending in 6 more days. Looking forth to it, but all at the same time not looking forth to it. Looking forth, cos i can finally get some time to breathe, to sleep and to catch up on my work. shit 3 weeks to study for JCT, and so heavy. ive got no idea how im going to do it. but i must. Chem SPA this tuesday, so tmr, i'll leave the first thing when band ends again):. sighs. And like, i hope i can survive. omg, i need reassurance, energy and determination right now. with no distractions at all):. I really hope i can catch up with my work, before JCTs. if not, im fried pork meat la.):. and well, not looking forth cos, that means, wont be seeing linsheng anymore for the rest of the year, no sectionmates to go crazy with, no band mates to go mad with. and yeah, i'll miss them. sighs. but prelude is coming, and my andersen solo is still screwed. its so high, and shit la. am making so many mistakes. Attacking the note, ending together, support, airy high notes, flat high notes. and guess what. linsheng/section can hear it all.):. I really really pray that i'll get the andersen solo part nicely done for prelude. Thats the only one that i have/deciding to take up. The toughest one in fact. Lots of sustaining to do. sighs. life sucks. playing also like that, academics also like that, health also like that. and well, the relationship/friendship side, i guess its okay now la. but still, im feeling really tired from some of the things that are happening from that side.
This week. chem spa, NAPFA(which im going to fail, hop ewill pass the august retest though), and prelude. Please, let this week be a safe one. I pray pray that i'll survive in all classes and lectures, and i pray that 74067 wont throw tantrums with me morrow. omg, plspls. I'll need all these desperately. sighs. This is the hardest phase of life, just yet. when the whole world seems to be collapsing/falling apart. Really need support, and loads of reassurance and zest and energy to go on. Pls. let this week be a good one. Just this week for now. oh man.
namodacidabeiqianshouqianyanguansiyingpusa, let this week be a fine one. and baoyou wo. oh man.):
and recently my eyelids for both have been twitching like hell. oh boy.
well. updating to do one day k. long post coming up again. yup.
going off.
-jErM you never did and you never will.and its getting really tiring and sickening. Avoidance. Sighs. Somehow. Im feeling so confused over every single thing right now.):
