weather: raining
24th August 2008(early early morning)
music: random
event: xinyun's birthday!
woa. just back from the fireworks display today. and also celebrating xinyun's bday. Today was really awesome. will talk about it more, but right now i feel damn shagged. Anyhow, haha, xinyun felt happier today so mission accomplished.(:. haha. Also, learnt something real important today. which is, that we should always treasure the things around us more. But i guess, everyone will onlY NATO(no action talk only) about this line. I guess, it's human nature. When one loses something, he/she will then realise how important this thing or person might actually be to him/her. haha, to those who are reading, you guys should feel damn fortunate man. I mean, come on, at least we can study. it's a luxury. even im guilty of groaning and groaning about studying all day. Also, people around us. At least, there are people who love us for who we are. and also that special someone whom, you will like love/like? the sacrifices and stuff made? im not really sure. But i guess, today, the lesson learnt was to treasure everything more around me. From people, to friends, to even time. yup! must treasure the time that we have. time is precious, onece it's gone, it's gone. it's never ever going to come back. haha. actually, after today, i feel more motivated to start studying. haha. really enjoyed today though. well. im tired off to sleep(:.
-and next time, i'd better think before i play a game of truth or dare. heh. haha. ahh well. it's really fun though. haha. contradicting myself. but who cares.(:..
ctd'
I somehow feel that, when you love someone. It doesnt necessarily mean that you've gotta be with her/him, or make him/her your stead. I just somewhat feel that, what you gotta do, is to make the person that you love feel happier, and that is all you should do. If a relationship is so hurting, I think that it should somewhat stop. Cos, relationships are meant to make ppl happier. And if the other party is not willing to accept, I guess, then we've gotta learn to accept the facts and just move on. But just, make the other person happier, such as whenever the other party requests for your help, you can try to help. Actually, when it comes to relationships, i hate middlemen, or just simply being one. Even if im classified as one. It's f irritating. sometimes, when it comes to relationships, middlemans just make the situation worse. That's something that i've learnt, many times. I guess, whenever something bad happens, there should not be any middlemans or mediators, but as friends, support your friend, and perhaps give some advice and nothing more. Normally, a third persons view is best. Cos whenever a quarrel happens, both parties will tend to argue with each other. Somehow, as i look at that particular relationship, I dont think its gonna work out either. That is why, im just so afraid to confess to any girl. If kenna rejected, i dont really care about the physical embarrasement. Rather, the emotional wound. It can hurt. Being hurt physcially can always take time to heal. but being hurt emotionally is terrible, and being hurt emotionally can really take a toll on your whole entire life. Gosh. Just somehow think that, really, should back off. Take some time off, and perhaps distract yourself with whatever things you can. Last year, in haising, when there was a big argument btw me, my junior and another junior. It is really hurting, it took a big big toll on my mid year results, but when we left each other alone. as in, me, my junior vs my another junior, things started to settle. and half a year later,which is the beggining of this year, my another junior added us 2 back onto his msn. Both parties were at fault. no matter what happens, it's always 2 parties at fault. really. we both apologised, and now, everyone's k with each other. But then, i guess for now, leaving her alone now, would perhaps be the best thing to do. yup, just use studies to distract yourself. I guess, dont think so much about relationships and stuff anymore, right now, i guess studies is the most impt thing of anyone's life.
-jErM
