weather: sunny
18th July 2008
music: danceries, nostadamaus, would you be there
Today:
so week 4 flew by. and after this week, we won't be able to see many many of our teachers ever again. Somehow today, when singing the farewell song to mrs lim, i almost cried. i stopped singing halfway and continue clapping with the class. and today,, when ye lao shi is about to leave also, seriously, there's a sense of loss deep in me. To think that i was so against ye lao shi during her first few days, sighs, i guess it's human nature that we dunno how to treasure whatever that is in our lives, it's only when we lose it that we realise how important actually how this thing/person mean. I miss ye lao shi, i miss Mr ho, I miss mrs lim, i miss all of them alr. and seriously, today in class, i felt freakishly horrible deep within. All the teachers that has ever left me is like those, who like seriously ever cared. I didnt really have teachers who can care for me till the extent of willing to stay back just for me to clarify my doubts. Not even mrs Tang or mdm zaibon( from hsc), the day 1st september, will be the day that mrs lim is gonna leave us, to go california, for 2 whole years. This feels like the time that Amit was leaving. I'm just so afraid, that i might end up crying there. I really hope not, cos when Amit left, i cried. When mrs lim is gonna leave, our whole class is gonna be there, and i think im gonna contact all the PAE ppl also. gosh, im feeling so terrible right now. I feel like crying. Perhaps, i shall cry myself to sleep tonight. I dunno. crap, tears.
sighs, other than that, band was okay today. today, on the later part of band, i kindda like my tone/playing. I dunno. things seemed to be fine. Im not sure. it has been a really long time since i liked my playing. I dunno. really. I dunno. But no matter how hard i try, i can never ever be like kj, xy, or ct. It's like perhaps, the commitment to music, for me, is horrible. I've tried. i've seriously tried to excel both in band and studies. But looks like, fate only allows me to choose one to excel in. and, i dunno. forget it. I SUCK. anw, today danceries was really nice. and i liked gong qi jun, and the band heard nostradamaus today. i love those pieces manz. sighs. stayed back a while with bao hui, and if you ask her, ZOMG, i love my playing today(in the later parts of band) especially when it got to the stair case there(though the sound there is always nice) it' nicer than before. OKAY, you know what, forget this whole paragraph la. sighs. forget it. seriously, don't bother.
Perhaps, today is an emotional rollercoaster ride day. From high feelings, to low feelings, I duno, today is just, sighs, in conclusion, great and horrible.
ytd: sso/sharon bezaly's concert.
thank you kj, thank you wang lao shi for the tickets. that day was an okay day. thanks so much really, that i get to hear sso for the first time in my life. oh, and also for the tickets to the snyo concert. haha, that day zomg, was kenna ga chaioed a bit. The concert was mm, i didnt really understood much of the piece, so, yeah, but i felt that she was an okay player. Perhaps the piece didnt really show off her skill?nvm, i shant comment. im just an amateur junioristic flautist anw. But she's somewhat amazing too, like when the orch is playing, you can see her fingers flying. Ooo. and i kindda liked the way she expressed herself on her flute, haha( finally a flautist that moves something like me when i play) ---> points to heart and voice, points to disco party 3. okay. nvm, but zong er yan zi, that day was quite fine. and, sighs, 6 years ofliking gone, it's finally subsided, i guess, it's time i let go too. and i actually fell for another. sighs. nvm. had omg, talks about dreams, sex, i dunno anything under the sun with kj and xy that day too. and talked to kj a bit also about stuff? was kindda enjoyable though, both the talks and the concert, again thank you so much xy, kj(:. you guys rock!
meeting with debby(hantu bloggers)
what can i say? amazing. seriously, I've never ever regretted meeting debby. our group 105 met with debby at the tcc somewhere near wheelock place and the royal thai embassy. Our group was kindda late, unprepared. but debby was really nice to provide so much information, so much help, and even treated us to whatever we ordered. (lucky we said we eat lunch alr). and, it somehow got our grouped so inspired and motivated to work this pilot test properly out and like, learn diving at the year end and join hantu bloggers. I dunno whether it's due to tiredness, but todays meeting in class was somewhat, unproductive. I guess everyone is tired.
oh yeah, and the getting back of report cards. oh manz, making me think of mrs lim again.):.
My grades, my "amazing", darn most "amazing" grades in the world.
ESEU(4 H2S)
SB(2 H1S, 1 more pw, but no grade)
ESEU. can you believe it. what f horrible results la. sighs, and all my teachers believe in me that i can do it. I guess, it's high time i return the favour? im not really sure. anw, you guys wanna see the comments? ah well, i will post it up anw.
Math H2(mr gan): Jermain is a studious boy who is keen to improve himself. He is making steady progress in his studies and is capable of achieveing better results if he continues to work hard.
[jerm comments: omg, is mr gan like serious. I don't do tutorials sometimes in class, some lessons i dun even listen to him at all. omg. im a horrible person, and furthermore, im always so against him and he's became nicer to the whole class. sighs, jerm, reflect]
Chem H2(mr goh): He is motivated to do well but he should sort out his concepts and not mix them up
[jerm comments: sighs, sometimes, i feel like meeting mr goh up to clarify my doubts, but, aik. i dont have his contact. okay, maybe i should go and get and ask him. I wanna score. for chem]
Bio h2(mrs lim): Jermain is a good student and shows a keen interest in the subject. However, he did not do as well as expexted. Itr could be due to his time management as he is also commiteted to his PDP and spends a large propotion of his times on rehearsals. He needs to learn to prioritise and learn not to take things lightly, especially when it comes to studies.
[jerm comments: I SUCK. can't even manage my time properly. D;]
Econs H2( mr ho): Jermain has a pleasant disposition that endears him well with his classmates. Has consistently showed the desire to keep up with the pace of tutorials despite his often hectic PDP schedule. Better time management and prioritisation should allow jermain to cope with the challenges of the subject and JC education in general
[jerm comments; time management again. and omg, econs is the sub i got U.. horrible.]
gp(mr aulia): Jermain is a good natured student who has the potential to do well in GP. He needs to formulatae his opinions clearly and concsiely to maximise this potential.
[jerm comments, my percentile for gp, is 10. which is horrible, sighs, looks like i gotta start reading papers]
Chinese(ye lao shi): A keen learner, he pays attention in class and clarifies his doubts. He is able to express his ideas and thoughts with clarity.
[jerm comments: thank you ye lao shi. but, sighs, im just gonna miss you manz.)':]
PW(gan): [everyone in class got the same thing, except mine got1 add line] Jermain needs to learn that it is important to understand the task requirement of each stage of pw before embarking on it to be efficent as an individal or group. So far he has been taking initiative in refiniing the gpp.
[jerm comments: -no comments-]
civics tutor comments(mrs lim): Jermain has been rather busy with his PDP and has very little rest. He should start practicing time management. He seems hapy to be involved in his pdp, but that might have taken alot of time away from him. He needs to learn to priorities. other than that, jermain is a very nice boy, courteous and attentive in calss. When in doubts, he will make an effort to look for the tutor to clarify.
[jerm comments: sighs.. hate myself]
okay, so thats about it. Basically it's time management. seriously, im so useless, i can't even manage my own time properly. hate it. stupid dumb da bian marikita. ROAR.
sighs, i guess, the moral of the story for today is,
-better time management
and
-to treasure things around you.
i guess everything is kindda like a race against time. when something goes off, you'll never know. and like, when time passes, it will never ever come back. I guess until someone invents the time machine. ah well.
im off. feeling drained, tired? i dunno. just feeling perhaps, lost.
-jErM
lets hope next week, i'll be able to do loads and loads and loads of work
go jerms.