weather: rainy
31st August 2008
music: and i still believe in destiny- cinderella 3
event: dad's bday
okay. am not supposed to blog la. but, really must rah out a bit.
I feel Anything but happy.
I feel like BOMBING the whole town.
I feel like Cutting myself.
I feel Down
I feel like getting an Elephant to tramp over me
I feel like getting up a Going into the sea and stay there forever.
I feel like Hamtaming myself with a Hammer
I feel like an Idiot
I feel like taking a JAR and smash it on the floor
I feel going up on a Kite and fly far far away from here
I feel like LALALALALLALALA-ing 100000 times
I feel like going back into my Mama's womb and never coming out
I feel like cracking Nuts
i feel like going to going to the sea, and get an Octopus to strangle me
I feel like Pumping up and down till i get even more tired.
I feel like going to ask Queens of england and ask them why got rules
I feel like RAHRAHRAHRAHRAHRAHRAHRAING out to the sea
I feel like playing TOOKI games
I feel like getting an Umbrella and shove it into myself.
I feel like getting a Vase and let it go PRING PRONG PRIANG.
I feel like going into a Whale and let it fly me to the north pole to find santa
I feel like going to the band room to take the Xylophone and DING DONG DANG on it and slam it like mad.
I feel like getting the cat's Yarn so that i can entangle myself with it and do not needa study.
I feel like going to the Zoo, bird park and night safari.
Now i know my ABCS, for now, just ignore me.
sighs. i feel down, depressed, I feel negative. Im such a negative externality.
Lately, i just feel so tired to do anything at all nowadays. I feel tired, inside out, spiritually, physically, mentally, emotionally. Just tired. Its like im on the 5th/6th lap of 2.4, and i'm gonna collapse any moment. I can feel my soul worn out. I need a break. along one. but not now, not right before promos):. I dunno how long i can cheng.
Didnt do much work lately. sighs, though i did, compared to andrea, my mugging is much less. I've gotta emulate and learn and have the discipline to study manz. So many chapters.):
and worse thing still, tmr, mrs lim is gonna leave. Leave us for 2 whole yeras. she will return, but im just sad that she cant stay to teach us anymore. I miss the time rahing out the questions, and her patience just sitting there and making sure until my thermometer like face turns positive. Okay, this sounds wrong, [cos, she said that my face is like thermometer, whenever i give "that look", woa, its like, haha, yeah she knows that i dont understand] and like i can always look for her after school to clarify everything. and mrs lim's Chromosomes and DNA drawings are all so nice and sweet. Im very very scared. and why do i get this strange feeling, that i'll just cry in like 6-7 hours time. Its 6am at the airport then. Followed by econs in the late morning. I didnt do pok's hmk. and i feel so tired to do anything alr.):.That's it la. im so dead. and perhaps tmr, it's not gonna be an okay day. sure not gonna be an okay day. I miss mrs lim. I really do )':
I feel so tired, depressed and sad. I need the courage and energy to lift it up. And it would be really great, if you could give me that energy and courage to move on. I really hope things will turn out fine. oh nvm, what the heck im talking.
-gimme the strength, zest, 24 more days. woa. pls pls, gimme the strength.))):.
cos i had a bad dayy=/
-jErM
