weather: fine.
26th June 2008
music: mozart's oboe concerto k314, 3rd movement.
things that should have happened, and things that should not have happened.
don't you feel that things that should have happened did not happen and like things that should not have happen did happen. sighs. D;. many many many many countless things have happened throughout these few weeks whilst i didnt blog. so for you guys out there,
GET READY FOR AN UBER UBER UBER UBER UBER UBER UBER UBER UBER UBER UBER UBER UBER UBER long post tomorrow. yups. you guys can get ready for an extremely long one. maybe have to split into parts. I dunno.
today, the reason for this post, is actually, quite unexpected. after the chinese paper today, I felt emo. (i know i have a lot of negative feelings lately, but. ya [goes out to don]) not emo over the fact that the paper is difficult, the paper is quite fine actually. But i was kindda affected by the passages they used this time round. the paper is quite fine. and there was this passage about. erm. one word to basically summarise the passage
fakeness.
somehow, I wonder as i read through the passage. thoughts were running through my mind over things that have happened over the past weeks. things that i've seen through, been through, or even felt through, said through? The passage said something like...
when i was attending one science lesson one day, our teacher asked, what's the difference btw an animal and a human?
the class got stunned
the ans is, humans can feel and have emotions and be expressed by facial emotions and stuff, but not animals.
when the author heard this, he was very surprised and like leng4 zhu4, so he thought that it was some golden advice thingy.
but like, as years passed, he felt that what the teacher say was quite untrue.
like, in a way that, your facial expressions do not really show what you truly feel. Like, how many times have he comed across situations when, your facial expressions do not truly show how you feel, like, he was sitting on this aeroplane once, and like, the airplane ladies(stewardess) are like showing them how to put on oxygen masks, but through those smiles, he can sense that she's like doing it for the sake of doing, her real feelings are like sianned.
okay, the passage is still lots more, but you guys should be able to get my point. Sometimes, when im like angry with a person, i do not like, show it on my face, i still like pretend that things are fine and stuff, while like burning with rage inside.it's like, true aint it. and like,everyone is fake to some extent. In this complicated world, it's not everytime that humans show their true expressions on their faces.like, you can feel sianned, hurt, or whatever, and put on a smile.(this thing works sometimes, but when you do it many many times, somehow, you can't contain the anger much more)
you can like, show a depressed face and stuff to like attract attention when you're feeling so fine inside you.
somehow, it just made me think laa. the events related to this, well, im not gonna post it up. shall just leave it for you guys to like, think about this baas I guess. somehow, whenever i think about those events, somewhat, i feel so, mm. awkward, weird? sudden worries? i dunno. somewhat, this is once when ican't describe how i really feel. It's like, one second it's like this, yet next another second it's like that. sighs. forget it. really. I dunno how to go on alr.
bio and math paper tomorrow. bio lots not studied. feeling quite tired now. maybe waking up earlier to like study tomorrow. let's hope things can go in.
section outing morrow. jct ends morrow. cant wait.
sighs, im losing alot of zeal and energy from myself. BAHH.forget it. sighs.
cya guys.
-jErM
